The Smoke Trail

Over the last decade, I have investigated myself by Non Dual Advaita processes of inner engineering. 

Over time, I have learnt that some of my most painful and self defeating habits I used to suffer from have radically changed by the power of meditation and direct investigation. 

Meditation for me is not only sitting in a posture focusing on breath or a candle. I found and discovered new frontiers of meditation. By paying attention to simple processes of life and nature,  I found my answers to some very vexed issues and habits. 

Mostly, I immersed myself in Nature and observed how people respond to events and emotions in a homogenised world. By submissive inquiry and abject surrender to Nature's way, slowly but surely I started experiencing(finding) the solutions to my problems. My photography, cycling, painting, vlogging, sketching, singing, cooking, observing the cause effect and reactions on Twitter or WhatsApp Groups offered me my Aha moments. Small gaps started appearing in which I found silent moments of meditation. 

Slowly, I started experiencing The true Nature of Life, consciousness and awareness. I realised that happiness and peace reside just behind my mind. 

I find it fascinating that we can observe our thoughts and emotions. We usually know that we are angry, happy or sad as and when we are angry, happy or sad. We actually experience our emotions. But, surely the part  of the mind which knows I am angry, can't be angry. Otherwise, how will it know that. This made it clear to me that some part of my mind was free and aware to identify the anger in me. 

In the normal daily use of mind we tend to identify personally with the anger, sadness or joy. It becomes our reality. But, through meditation I am able to distance myself from this identification and learn that behind all my temporary rise and fall of emotions, resides something which is more stable and balanced. That awareness is far greater than the pain and suffering that we so often find ourselves caught up in. 

So each time I see a smoke trail of a jet plane etched so deeply in the sky, I smile and know that it's just a temporary trail and will soon vanish in the vastness and permanence of the Sky. 

Now, without getting rid of my thoughts, I remain plugged to my awareness through my meditation and  meditative lifestyle. It offers a sense and feeling of freedom. Freedom, by its Nature brings happiness.

I have never been so happy in life